EMOTIONAL APATHY IS NOT AS GOOD AS IT SOUNDS when you’re up to your ass in problems again
Our intrepid shopper here up to her/his ass in problems again. What do you do ? Having spent most of my adult life blowing bubbles in it, anxiety and depression pushed me into a corner. Easy to say isn’t it? trouble is they are not really capable of pushing you into a corner. More over, psychological conditions are within the mind and if you master control over it ……..
As a matter of fact, emotional apathy was a way of life for me for many years. First taking antidepressants aged 21, most of my emotions were unpleasant. Emotional immaturity and a lack of intelligence made me shy away from negative emotions. A question in my head now is, do negative emotions exist? In the first place, we all know that we can’t just feel great all the time. Realism is essential to good mental health. When you find your low moods unbearable, Aside from long term conditions resulting from brain damage, short term experience of low mood is normal and should be accepted as part of normal life.
EMOTIONAL APATHY IS NOT AS GOOD AS IT SOUNDS.
CHANNELLING RESTLESS ENERGY
Often confused with apathy is serenity. In the first place apathy is a similar sensation to a local anesthetic for the emotions. Adolescence and adulthood tend to make us put filters on our emotions. Reserved about how we feel. As a result we end up with suppression again. Tending to end up back in the realms of emotional processing and how we deal with feelings we find unpleasant. It’s true that we all find some emotions embarrassing or awkward and for some reason or another we don’t express those emotions we are dying to expose.
Coupled with fear of change , the emotions good and bad that can go with it can be crippling. Equally important is mindfulness. Of course apathy and mindfulness are kind of opposites. Likewise decisions tend to be difficult as you are not really sure how you feel about anything. When going through an emotional storm, local anesthesia in the form of antidepressants is welcome. Just like the perfect storm, it will surface when you eventually have to stop taking them. Coupled with relapse the likely feelings of confusion that will bring with it are not pleasant.
When the unpleasant symptoms and relapse come knocking on the door, it’s all too easy to think you’re not ready. At that point it would be so easy to just for packet. Of course I have been there many times and gave in because life was too busy to deal with this. Keep going, push through the barrier, because when you get through that you won’t go back. Always talk to your friends or a therapist. Distract yourself as soon as you start to feel wobbly. Likewise be kind to yourself. Beating yourself over the head will only serve to make you feel worse. Reward yourself for each day you manage to push through. Additionally you could set yourself a goal for each week and decide the reward should you reach it.
EMOTIONAL APATHY IS NOT AS GOOD AS IT SOUNDS… DON’T LET ANYONE JUDGE YOU
There are many people on this earth that feel they are in a position to judge you for even being on antidepressants in the first place. Nobody but NOBODY is in that position. Equally those who have been on them. medication is needed and used for many different reasons. Each one unique. Make sure you go by what you feel and what you know is best for you. When you feel the withdrawal or relapse symptoms, distract yourself with something you enjoy and can focus on completely. Furthering your education in a subject that interests you is a good way of keeping the mind active when it starts looking for what it’s missing. Feed it with something else. The mind craves knowledge and it is easy to distract it from drugs. Try telling yourself over and over that you don’t need them.
It is possible to climb to the top of that steep staircase that you thought was impossible. Mission impossible doesn’t exist. We are all capable of achieving whatever we put our mind and energy to. The only question is how much do you want it. Personally I had forgotten how it felt to have a clear mind that was capable of making informed decisions quickly. My memory improved so much. Finding that post it notes no longer needed to be all over my fridge was great. The photographic memory that used to make me proud came back. The wish to better my education was sharper than ever. Most of all my emotions were no longer making me fearful. So when you get to the top of that staircase, sit and enjoy the view you have been missing and feel proud